not here yet. 38 weeks.

no baby yet.

actually i cried when i left the clinic yesterday cause i felt so defeated/anxiety ridden.

here's the update:

the scale was not my friend this past week.

i gained 5 lbs in one week. which i honestly, 100% didn't know could even happen. and since i haven't gained any weight at all in the last week, i was shocked! i will say though that it must be strictly to my feet and hands and probably neck since they are even more bloated than before. on tuesday when i woke up i thought my hands had fallen off because i couldn't feel them. i really should of taken a picture since they were so bloated, but it honestly was painful- to say the least, the very least, to even grasp the fridge door to get gavin some milk. my shoes... wait, what shoes? i have ONE pair that my feet will fit in and now they are almost too snug to fit into. even my uggs- yep, boots, are almost too snug to fit into.... it's sad sad day. my doctor seemed to think i "over indulged myself" on super bowl sunday, but after i told her i haven't been eating anything different- avoiding sodium as best that i can and keeping off my feet- even ON super bowl sunday, she was slightly surprised.

okay back to my doctor appointment.

my blood pressure went up again- 140/85. but there's no trace of protein in my urine so she's not too concerned about inducing this week. WHY NOT DOC?- i am moooooore than ready. i do however need to go in TWICE a week until he arrives. he's still in position (head down) and i'm still measuring small- 35 weeks instead of the 38 weeks that i am, so we are ready! the second my urine has traces of protein or my blood pressure goes higher is when she plans on sending me in.

i'm still wishing/hoping that it will happen TOMORROW- 2/9... it would be special to share our engagement anniversary, justine and anthony's EIGHT year anniversary, and dan, mike and emily's birthday.....

but i know something special is happening that day so i will be excited no matter what. ahhh! :)

also, i'm gearing up and storing up on prepared frozen meals (i feel like a bear getting ready to hibernate) and getting everything set for gavins valentines day daycare party if just in case this baby comes early. i am nervous to rely on dan or someone else to get things ready for gavins daycare party so valentines are written and shari is going to make cookies for me- bless her heart!

i'm hoping to not blog again until after baby arrives- but we'll see if that happens. come visit in the hospital when he comes. i'm going to be going crazy sitting in there!