giving thanks.

so thankful.

i am so thankful for so much in my life.

gavin
dan
our families
maddy, bella, lilly
our home
freedom
safety
dan's wonderful job
love
our faith
kisses
the joy that gavin brings to our hearts
the snow :)
delicious food
pandora
good movies
friends
dan, mine and gavin's health
our heated garage ;)
the holidays
jimmy johns
gossip girl, haha
wine


to go along with how thankful i am is how nervous i am for our family pictures. we tried someone different this time and i'm NERVOUS! gavin wasn't the happiest camper and it was cold outside (40, but with wind).. so we'll see. if not i will just self time our camera and do it ourselves. --also, i found this amazing editing program! i played around with it all day today (after installing it for what seemed to be an hour) and found some really great lighting's, tools, ect.
and with the nerves here comes the amazement. our friends are so great. i am B-L-E-S-S-E-D to have each and every single one of them in my life. through the good, bad and everything in between they are there for myself and dan, no questions asked. and.. justine surprised everyone the night before thanksgiving, it was fabulous seeing her face.
and even though the amazement is great, love from my little boy is even better. my poor gavin is having troubles with his sleep. we think he's having night terrors (which start around 18 months if it is so) and wakes up SCREAMING. i've spent a good 10 hours thursday and friday night combined awake, laying in the spare bedroom with gavin playing with my hair, snuggling with his "muuuma." thankfully he seems to be okay if we leave the door open, a night light on and the hallway light on as well. it might send our electricity bill up, but it's worth those couple hours of sleep. secretly, i kind of miss the cuddles.
from love to relief. although gavin brings so much joy&love to my heart i am not ready to have another darling child. i thought i was, but was mistaken. my baby fever is over... for now. so many people around me are getting pregnant and/or having babies, now i'm just excited for them, not jealous! feels good. i'm sure dan has mixed emotions about this.. he can never keep up with my mixed emotions on this subject.

life is... good.